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FF : I Am…FREE Part 15

July 15, 2012









As Arnav stood facing the door, the cries of his wife haunted him…

Tortured him…

Shattered what little was left of his heart…

Her every sob…

Every choked gasp…

Every pain filled whimper…only fuelled the storm that was ready to explode within him…

Slowly and cautiously, he turned…

Khushi sat in a crumpled heap on the bedside, hand clutching her heart…

Diamond tear drops fell in slow motion and splashed onto her hand…

She looked up…

The pain.

When Arnav saw the extent of the pain he’d caused…he felt the last chain that had been withholding his emotions…finally snap…

Intense emotions, unlike anything he’d ever felt, surged through him….

Unleashing his anger, he verbally struck out at himself…

“What have I done! I NEVER wanted to hurt you! I NEVER, EVER thought I would allow myself to go to that extent!” he skidded to his knees before her…

“I hate myself! I WANT to let you go, but Khushi…I…I can’t! I can’t do it! You deserve so much, and all I have given…” he let out a strangled scream and slammed his fist brutally onto his chest…

“My GOD! What do I do…Khushi…How!? Please! Tell me how I can help you! I am sick with disgust over what I did…what I did was…God…I can’t be without you, but…everytime I look into your eyes, I see the pain I have caused…”

Standing up briskly, his entire presense was emiting the trauma he was in…

He was at war.

With himself.

Arnav’s heart was tearing in half…

He NEEDED her.

But he also needed to let her go…

Letting her go was the most horrifying thought…

But the horror in her eyes was more than he could ever bear…

Khushi was speechless.

There were two men before her, Arnav and Arnav Singh Raizada…

The soundwaves of his shrill decisions were hitting her senses…

His thoughts burst through, into her subconcious…

“I need her…I need to let her go…need her…let her go…need to let her go…”

Her head shot up…

Eyes wide and clear…

“He’s going to let me go…”

Before Arnav could regain control of the fear and panic that had swallowed him up…

He saw Khushi’s shivering form rush out of the room to the poolside…

The impossible emptiness in the pit of his gut made him instantly run after her…

Arnav had never chased a woman, no matter the circumstances.

But this wasn’t just a ‘woman’…she was his soul…

How it happened he might never know, but Khushi had become an integral part of him.

He needed her more than air itself.

Reaching her, he gave up on waiting for the right moment and yanked her forcefully to himself…and captured her mouth with his.

He slanted his head and pressed deeper…

Her mouth parted to allow him access and he swept inside to caress, leaving no spot untouched.

When his tongue connected with hers, a low moan rumbled in his throat.

He tasted of masculine heat, and a passion that she now longed to disappear in.

This man…the once cold hearted business tycoon… wanted her.

His fingers tugged at her clothes, and then his hand slipped beneath the material, she gasped at the exquisite sensation of his palm splayed across her bare back.

His nostrils flared. “My God Khushi, I want you, I want you beneath me, I want to be one with you, In your heart…” he pressed up against her even harder…”Inside your body…I just love you…I love you… ”

His words stole her breath.

No one had ever spoken that way to her…with such sensuality that she literally felt like she was floating on a cloud and yet sinking deep into the depths of the sea…

Arnav’s heart was racing with terror and elation combined…

Elation for having Khushi in his arms…

Terror for thinking this could be his last chance…

He’d never needed a woman like he needed Khushi…

She made his blood run hot and wild.

All rational thought lay just out of his reach.

The poolside was dimly lit…

Stars shone down on them…

In the dimly lit sky the moon fought for dominance… 


All around them, the exotic plants and flowers lent to the ambience, while the night began to engulf them.

Was this right? Him? Her?

The damnable thought flashed in the back their minds…

Arnav couldn’t comprehend how something that felt so right could be wrong.

He had already vowed in his heart to never hurt her again…but would she ever be able to forgive him THIS time…

Spearing his fingers through her rich, dark hair to cup her nape, he surged forwards, pressed her forcibly up against the wall, and dropped his head to press his mouth to hers once again…

Lips, supple and tantalizing, met his between cries….

Sliding his tongue along her crease, he probed for entrance.

When she surrendered, parted her lips, he slipped inside.

Curling her fingers into his shirt, she clung to him as if he were her anchor.

Her cry echoed through him.

The whimper was so arousing and heartbreaking that he slanted his head to once again deepen the caress.

Their tongues dueled…

Their hands sought.

Simultaneously, they reached for each other’s surrender.

Arms tangling in sleeves halted their kiss for a split second….

Next time they embraced, skin touched skin, with the exception of her bra, which scraped against his pulsing nipples, driving him insane with need.

With a twist of his fingers, the clasp behind her back came free.

The lace fell between them as their mouths meshed together.

Pliable and giving beneath his palms, her body was a veritable feast.

Without hesitation, he devoured her, until the need to breathe tore them apart.

Arnav smoothed her long raven hair over her shoulders, baring her further.

A small, tucked waist and curves made to be worshipped enticed him.

But it was her breasts, which fit perfectly in his palms, that called to him.

As her thick eyelashes fell and rose again, his reflection of pure terror and elation shone back at him.

“Khushi…” he choked, because no other words formed.

He didn’t just want her—his body demanded hers.

He let the pain wash over him, through him.

He saw her face drenched in tears…

Her hands clinging to his shoulders…

Her hot mouth open and panting…

Arnav froze…

Just the thought of thrusting in and out of her warm, wet centre woke the beast within him.

His erection hardened more, tightening until it felt rock hard.

“Khushi…I can’t…I can’t do this to you…”

His heart thumped against his breastbone. 



His pulse raced.

Self-control went up in flames.

“The guilt is killing me.” His hands shook as he held onto her tightly…

He had to have her…

He could hardly think straight…

The only thing on his mind was parting her thighs and losing himself in her warmth.



Finally her eyes raised to his…


As she responded, her words were felt in the inner most depths of his heart…



















4 Comments leave one →
  1. July 15, 2012 9:04 am

    omg what did she say??? talk about a cliff hanger!!brilliant brilliant update as always. I never know what to expect!naina a.k.a warriorprincess from IF

  2. July 15, 2012 6:13 pm

    OMG! What did she sayyyy?? I want to know RIGHT NOW!please update soon, like really really soon..Pollytrolly IF!(i somehow like commenting on ur blog instead on the forum, i hope u don't mind) 🙂

  3. July 17, 2012 4:00 am

    aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk what did she say? i NEEED to no, please dont do this not a cliffhanger, not again ooooaawwww

  4. jeevanjots permalink
    March 23, 2013 1:52 am

    huhm clifhanger

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