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FF : I Feel Everything Part 30

October 14, 2012




Waking slowly, Khushi smiled feeling Arnav’s arm around her waist…

But when her eyes opened fully, she felt a surge of stinging shoot across her face…

Scooting away from him on the bed, she sat up, winced, and quickly  pulled a sheet over herself…

She hissed again…even her palms hurt, scraped raw.

Trembling at the memories, she stared down at her reddened hands, and bruised wrists…overwhelmed by emotions she was battling to suppress.

Terror.

Disbelief.

Shock.

A chaos of feelings that made beads of perspiration break out on her forehead.

She had come close to being fully raped…and now…she felt like she was dying inside…

Arnav had watched her carefully as she sat up…

He wanted to rush to her, but held himself back…barely…

He wanted to see her fighting power kick in…

Khushi closed her eyes tight…wishing more than ever that Arnav would come to save her from the memories…

As her eyelids clenched, he saw a tear…

Enough.

“No…” he rasped as he rushed to her…

He held her so tightly that it was hard to breathe, but the tears still came, silently washing down her cheeks.

He kissed her chin and moved up to her cheek, tasting the salt of her tears.

He pressed his face against hers.

His hand cupped the back of her head.

His mouth hovered over hers.

“With me…you’re with me…Khushi…”

Securing his arm around her waist, he lifted her hand with his free hand…

Bringing her fingers to his chest and pressed her hand down hard…”Feel me…It’s me…You’re not alone…”

He knew she was afraid of him leaving her alone again.

The words weren’t spoken, but they hung between them with the same frightening finality as if they had been uttered aloud.

Her lips trembled against a sob she could not stop, but he swiftly moved in and caught her mouth with his…

His kisses were relentless, pressing and releasing, forcing her attention away from her fears.

Lifting her carefully, he lay her back against the soft sheets…

Moving over her, both his hands held her face to his.

His body began a gentle rocking motion that sent shivers up her spine.

He hardened against the opening of her legs.

Arnav could feel her holding back…

He kissed his way down her neck, over her chest, to her breast.

Cupping the mound, he took her nipple into his mouth and sucked firmly as his tongue flicked over the tip…

Her womb clenched.

He pushed himself against her entrance as he reached down and lifted her knees.

“…I’m yours Khushi…You’re mine…And I’m here…I’m right here with you…”

“Arn…Arnavji…I…I…”

Planting his hands under her knees, he lifted her legs and pulled them around his hips, leaving her opening completely free for him to slide in…

Sorrow welled up within her again, but she fought it back as he slowly slipped into her slick warmth…

Arnav lay over her, watching her, letting her feel him with every stroke of his body.

“…open your eyes…”

More tears poured out as she looked up at him…

“Who is inside you…?”

His thick, forceful voice commanded her answer…

“WHO!?”

“You…” khushi whispered…

“That is the only way it’s ever going to be…Understand?”

Nodding, Khushi kept her eyes locked onto his…

Gradually his tender, slow movements built speed.

“I will do whatever I have to, to erase this fully from your mind…and I WILL erase it…”

The muscles in his face tightened.

Her body responded to the changes in him.

He licked his finger and reached between their bodies and massaged that sensitive spot, sending her over the edge.

She cried out and bucked up against him, feeling her body grasp at his erection.

He continued his long strokes inside her as if fighting the cresting wave, but it took him too, and his hot seed pumped into her.

Briefly, he relaxed, then he lifted his head and looked at her.

He didn’t have the right words to speak…

Arnav felt like tearing Shyam apart with his bare hands…

Her bruised wrists, her bruised face, her bruised body…

He could see how roughly she’d been handled…

Mentally swearing, he breathed deeply and consciously reined in his fury.

Excessive anger is not what Khushi needed to see…

Even if all his warrior instincts screamed for revenge.


……………..


“I don’t know what to call her…” Anjali mumbled for the millionth time…

“Anjali Bitiya, why don’t you write out your favorite and then just pick one, because you’ve mentioned almost every girl’s name under the sun!” Nani said smiling…

Payal was still pacing back and forth, looking at her phone…

“Payalji? Have you heard from Akash yet?”

She looked over at Anjali, her face stricken with nerves…”I don’t know why I can’t reach him Di…something is…”

“Oh…hey! Everyone must not panic!” Nk interrupted as he raced into the room…

“Akash Bhai was with Nanav last I saw him…I will call Nanav now..ok. Ok? Everyone…stay here!”


………………………….



“I’m not going to let Shyam ruin me…no…I can’t…I can’t let him do that…”

Sitting quietly on the bed, she picked up her phone wondering if she should call Payal…

Did she even know about Akash?

But as she lifted her phone, she saw there was one unread message appearing on the screen.

“My Khushiji…it will never end…I got out once…I’ll do it again…You’ll be mine…”

Just then, Arnav walked out of the bathroom…

He was about to say something when he saw her expression…

Pale, and silent.

Arnav slowly approached her and crouched down in front of her…”Khushi?”

Her eyes were fixed on her phone…

“what?…Khushi……”  he tried to take the phone from her, but she was gripping on tight…

The phone.

His pulse quickened…”Khushi…Jaan…Let me see…give me the phone…”

But she held on.

“Khushi. Give me your phone…”

“…why…?…why do…do you want it…?” her voice was cracking…

“Don’t push me Khushi! Give me your phone…”… after everything she’d been through, he was not in the mood…

When she didn’t move, he pulled hard and yanked the phone from her hand…

“No! Arnavji…No!”

But Arnav had already stood up and walked towards the couch…

He felt Khushi beside him trying to pull at his arm…

As he read the message, a roar filled his head, so loud it stopped his heart…

Khushi tried to breathe.

She wanted the power back…

She didn’t want to be the victim anymore…

But the sharp images of remembrance cut through her haze and made her once again feel the pain and despair…

Emotionally drained, Khushi began to feel faint…

The sky outside had darkened along with her heart…

As Arnav turned  to her, he could see her beginning to sway …”Come…sit down…come…”

Holding her as gently as he could, he ushered her to sit back down on the bed…

“Khushi…He is in jail…It’s over…”

“But what about Jiji, and Di, and Jijaji? I don’t know how everyone…”

Arnav’s phone began to ring…

He wanted to ignore it, but Khushi insisted, seeing it was NK.

“Hello.”

“Nanav? It’s getting harder to hide the fact about Akash Bhai…I need some help…what do I do?”

“Jiji…”

Arnav knew there was no longer any way to delay the inevitable.

“Take her to the police station. Stay with her. Make sure she is safe. Akash can tell her everything himself. Make sure Nani stays with Di…”

He hung up.

Khushi’s wide eyes locked on his…

“But…Arnavji…Arnavji…I…I…Jiji won’t…she…”

“If she is anything like you, she will handle things. She will handle HER relationship…”

Arnav lifted a hand to her face, “Please Khushi…You come before everyone…before anyone…”

“I can’t let her go through this alone…”

Arnav took a deep breath…

“Please…I can’t see more people hurt because of me…”

Arnav practially sneered at her…”YOU?! Because of YOU!? Khushi….none of this is because of YOU!!!”

Khushi could not say anymore…

They stared…

Eyes interlocked as time paused…

Arnav could see plainly how plainly how pale and confused she was…

“Khushi…” he whispered her name gently…”I’ll ask HP to bring some food up for us…okay?”

She nodded unknowingly…

Kissing her forehead, he stood up and walked to the bedroom door…

Khushi’s eyes follwed him closely…

Turning back, he smiled slightly…”I’m coming right back…”

As he left, she heard his loud voice yelling for  HP and that alone made her want to smile…

But her smiled soon faded as she heard a slight rumble…

The room began to darken as the sky outside began its electric war of clouds…

She quickly stood up and cringed as her body ached…

Hurrying, she rushed out of the room…

Her head was spinning from standing up so fast…

As she approached the top of the stairs, she saw shadows creeping across the walls…

Even with the lit halls, she felt fear…

“Do I go ahead? Or go back?” she thought…

Khushi felt imprisoned in limbo.

The shadows seemed to spiral out towards her like smoke…

Turning back, she hurried back into her room nervously, searching the room’s hiding places. 

The door slammed shut…

She waited.

After a few seconds, she ventured out from behind the chair…

She sighed in relief…”calm down Khushi…no one is…”  Her voice died completely, strangled into silence, as her eyes caught movement in the dark…

Khushi’s heart hammered her chest; she couldn’t get enough air. 

She remembered Shyam’s eyes burning with lust… 

Her head was throbbing…

Backing away, She held her hands out before her as if to ward the memory off…

Her back slammed into the glass door behind her…

For a moment, she saw nothing but a wall of dark shadows before her. 

Her mouth was dry…

Fear and panic welled up in her chest as she relived the way he had  growled and groaned…

Unable to look away, she finally saw a man emerge from the darkness, the black shadows sliding from his shoulders as if he were shedding a dark cloak. 

“Khushi…”

“…stay away…” she whispered…

“Khushi, It’s okay…Khushi…It’s Arnav…It’s me…I heard the thunder and rushed back up…”

Wind swirled in from the open window, billowing the curtains around her like fingers stretching, reaching to grab her. 

Panicked, she stepped away from the curtain…

For a moment, Khushi couldn’t move, could barely get her breath. 

The wind whipped through the room. 

The curtains reached out and encircled Khushi’s arms and ankles. 

She fought her invisible foe, the feeling of entrapment embroiling her senses. 

Two strong arms yanked her forwards and she brazenly  jerked free, pulling so hard she banged into the small table, knocking it over. 

Glass shattered and she stepped away, blindly, until her back hit the cold wall.

Two bolts of lightning ripped jagged holes in the sky, bringing with them twin blasts of thunder.

Fear gripped her heart in a taloned fist, and she slowly sank to the floor. 

She encircled her knees, rocking slightly back and forth. 

She felt confused…Abandoned.

Arnav was kneeling in front of her…

Not once had he taken his eyes off her…

He saw her head slouched-over on her shoulder, her arms limp at her sides.

sadness engulfed him as he heard her muttering…”I’m alone…alone…”

A stray strand of dark hair fell over her cheek, its darkness contrasting sharply against her paled skin.

He carefully reached out and touched her hand. 

It was like ice. 

“Khushi…”

Her breathing was rapid and uneven…

He wrapped her small fingers with his hand, trying to warm them. 

Her fingers twitched, then curved around his…

He scooped her into his arms, and she stirred, tossing her head, calling… “Arnavji…Arnav…where are…you…” 

Arnav gently placed her on the bed. 

Instantly her arms reached out, encircling his neck. 

“Someone was…I was…I saw someone…” she whimpered.

Arnav felt her body tremble. 

A flash of lightning lit the night sky as if summoned by her words. 

He leaned in close to her… 

When his cheek brushed hers, he felt her tears…

Guilt twisted his gut. 

He had caused her this anguish…

By leaving her alone…

Arnav crushed Khushi to his chest… 

“Breathe, jaan…. Big inhale, hold it, now exhale.”

Air rushed into her lungs, so much it made her light-headed.

Khushi shuddered at the strength of his arms around her…

“Get away from me,” she cried, trying to push him away.

Arnav refused to release her… “No…Khushi…Stop, It’s me!…”

“No…It didn’t happen…No…”  she interrupted…

Agonizingly, he realized she was trying to deny what Shyam did to her…

Khushi closed her eyes tight and then opened them again. ..

Her husband’s face still dominated her vision…

Pulling fiercely at his shirt, she screamed…”NO! It did NOT happen! NO! Tell me it didn’t happen! Arnavji, please tell me! Please tell me it didn’t happen!!!”

Arnav had been told that the shock may cause some denial, but he wasn’t prepared for her bitter pleading, which only reminded him of his mistake.

Not knowing what to say, he just held her…

“shh…shhh…” he whispered over and over…

She was already burrowing into him as he tried to hold her impossibly close…

Rain was now falling steadily outside…

He wanted to go to the bastard now.

He wanted to rip his heart out.

“I don’t know what to do…I don’t know Arnavji…”

As if his own heart had ripped in two, his head dropped to her lap and he cried…

His hands gripped her  as he broke…

“I’m sorry…I’m so sorry Khushi…”

“I don’t want to keep giving him the power…I want to get over this Arnavji…”

Through tearfilled eyes, Arnav sat up straight and looked at her…

He could see  that she desperately want to believe what she said…

Taking her hands in his, he forced out his words…”You will…we will…I mean it Khushi…”


14 Comments leave one →
  1. October 14, 2012 11:25 am

    Aww…my poor baby…I hope they make it through….Great update…Arshi94

  2. October 14, 2012 11:38 am

    Poor Khushi. Hope everything is fine with her. Great update.

  3. October 14, 2012 1:31 pm

    loved itxxxxzarlish

  4. October 14, 2012 4:34 pm

    How is she gonna get over all this???

  5. October 15, 2012 1:21 am

    heartbreaking asr will have to be her strength to get over what happened to her awesome update glad they finally sent payal but the should have told her before she went there just in case thanks for the pm

  6. October 15, 2012 2:42 am

    INTENSE, HEART DRENCHING, PASSIONATE UPDATELOVED HOW ARNAV KEPT ON ASSURING HER HE WAS WITH HERKUSHI POOR GIRL HAVING TO FACE THIS IS REALLY HARD TO DIGEST LOVE UR WRITING SKILLS UNDERCOVERHAPPY

  7. October 15, 2012 8:47 am

    It was simply awesome… U have captured Khushi's anguish and her desperation so amazingly that its unbelievable.Farheen75

  8. October 15, 2012 2:58 pm

    Great update….poor khushi and thanks for the PMBhadraprasad(IF)

  9. October 15, 2012 3:14 pm

    Poor Khushi,hope she pulls through…Great update.(tinsel)

  10. October 15, 2012 7:13 pm

    wow! great update, cant wait to see how arnav makes her feel better!! love their hot passion!!!!–Satina

  11. October 16, 2012 4:37 pm

    great update…khushi is broken…i dont know how much time she will take to heal…–peehu–

  12. October 30, 2012 1:01 am

    What happened to Akash?

  13. November 1, 2012 8:14 pm

    read through all the parts..the story is just fabulous*claps*waiting for u to update the next one soon:)

  14. November 28, 2012 4:16 pm

    Amazing. Loved it. -desisweetheart9 from IF.

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