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SS : Take What’s Left Of My Heart

March 29, 2013

WARNING –

THIS STORY IS QUITE CONTROVERCIAL
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT IT CONTAINS HEAVY THEMES

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“You’re lying!!!!!!!” he screamed…
Khushi was shaking with terror…
She had seen him angry…but this….
The man who stood before her now was no longer human…
Stepping backwards, trying not to trip, she responded…”I’m not lying…I’m not! How could believe such a thing about me! I’ve told you for months now that I have had NO affair with Shyamji! I explained to you what I meant by asking him to leave Di…”
Arnav stormed forwards, making Khushi trip out the poolside doors…
She felt a sharp stab of pain as her head hit the bricks roughly…
Arnav grabbed a fistfull of the clothing covering her torso and brutally yanked her up…Her pained cries unheard by his anger-filled head…
“Don’t you DARE call her Di! You have betrayed her! You have betrayed ME!!!”
Khushi’s eyes widened…”YOU? What do you mean?!”
Pulling her back into their room, he swiftly turned and locked all the doors…
Now facing her once more, he stalked forwards…”I was in love with you…”
Khushi felt as much joy as she did pain…”You…you were…”
Fisting his fingers through her hair, he threw her against the wall…”WAS! Was in love with you! I now hate you! I HATE YOU! The very sight of you disgusts me!”
Khushi felt her heart giving up hope, felt her eyes brimming over with tears…”Please…you have to believe me…”
Arnav furiously slapped his palm on the wall behind her…”I don’t have to believe anything you say! YOU stole MY sister’s husband! YOU had an affair with MY sister’s husband!!!”
“I didn’t…I didn’t …” she endlessly repeated…
Her vision began to blur, but Khushi assumed it was only from her tears…
Suddenly Arnav went frighteningly still…
“You want to hurt my sister…?” his breathing was hotter than fire against her face…”Then…I will hurt YOU…”
Alarm shot into Khushi’s entire system…
She hurriedly tried to push away and break free, only to be overpowered by Arnav’s inhuman strength…
Deftly grabbing two handfulls of her clothing, he ripped the fabric apart with ease…
“No…NO!” she began to scream…
“Shut up! I swear if you make another sound…”
Khushi bit her lip hard, drawing blood that sent the taste of acid rushing through her…
Harshly pushing her legs apart, he heartlessly shoved two fingers deep inside her sheath…
Even though she bit her lip, she could not hold back her groans of pain…
Increasing the pressure of his grip, he leaned closer…”I said…don’t make a sound…”
Her eyes gushed with tears as Arnav pulled her mercilessly to the bed…
He quickly withdrew his fingers and snarled…
She was moist, but not wet…
That fact alone had him fuming even more…
Not that she should find his abuse arousing, but just knowing that Shyam had probably made her drip with pleasure made his hate skyrocket even further…
Khushi tried to focus, but her head was pounding…
She could see his blurry figure climb onto her and lift her legs…
With one last attempt, Khushi’s voice broke with her pleas…”No…no…please…please Arnavji…”
“What’s wrong, MY WIFE!? You don’t want to give your husband your body!? One that you would GLADLY give your lovers!!!”
Khushi felt the last spark of her hope diminish…
And as Arnav brutally thrust into her virgin centre, she held eye contact with him, which only unnerved, and angered him further…
Arnav felt his own heart break as he forced himself upon the women he was still in love with…
But blinded by rage, and fuelled by hate, he was unable to stop…
Her eyes…
As he thrust deeply into her, he saw the life drain from her eyes…
He saw the honest pain, and he stopped…
His entire body seized up…
As he looked into her eyes, realization began to hit him like a tsunami…
“Oh fuck…” he breathed, as he pushed up onto his palms…
She still was looking hazily into his eyes…
“Khushi…”
She blinked as an endless stream of tears flowed from her eyes…
Arnav tried to breathe…”Khushi…I…Oh…my God…”
His heart began to shrivel up…
His mind was raging with thoughts…”Oh my God! Oh shit! What have I just done!”
Utterly shocked and disgusted by his actions, he pulled his softening erection out of her and stumbled away from the bed…
As he did, his eyes connected with her core…
Blood.
She was a virgin.
Angst penetrated his soul…
“Oh God, No, no, NO!”
He looked downwards at his own body and saw blood stains…
In seconds he was beside Khushi…
She shivered at she stared into space…
“K…Khu…Khushi…Khushi, listen to me…I’m…” he was desperate to help her, and quickly wrapped her in the quilt cover…”Khushi…” he pulled her into his arm, and gently held her face…”Look at me…Khushi…”
Just as her gaze hit his, her eyes slid closed and she fainted…
In all his life, Arnav had never felt such guilt, such pain, and such remorse…
“NO…Khushi…I’m…I…” he rasped…
From the corner of his eye, he spotted another blood stain…
On the pillow where Khushi’s head had been laying…
“What…?” he gasped as he lifted her slightly…
Carefully moving her hair, he saw a deep gash on the back of her head…
“Shit…shit, shit, shit…..” he groaned
Placing her delicately on the bed, he rolled her to one side as he pulled a pillowcase off one of his pillows and carefully dabbed the wound on her head…
“How did…?” his heart shot full of pain even further as small grains of stone fell from her hair…
He remembered how she fell…
Cursing himself, he pulled on a robe and rushed to call for a doctor…
A mere 10 seconds later, as he waited for the doctor, he felt her begin to shiver once again…
“Khushi?” he whispered…
Her eyes were closed…
Her breathing was steady…
But her body was beginning to shake…
He soon heard a loud, echoing knock resound in the house…
“Hari Prakash! SEND THE DOCTOR UP HERE! FAST!”
……..
“Her body is in shock…I’m a bit surprised, seeing as her head injury isn’t that severe…”
Arnav felt sick.
He knew why her body was in shock.
“Normally it takes something quite serious to put the body into a state of shock…”
Arnav was pale with worry.
“She doesn’t appear to have a concussion…see how she is once she wakes up…if there is anything you’re still worried about, then just call me and I’ll come back…”
Arnav stared at Khushi.
“Mr. Raizada?…”
“She…I…I was…”
The doctor cleared his throat…”The injury on her head is not serious, it looks like a deep gash, but it actually isn’t, the head bleeds moreso than any other part of the body…so it looks more serious than it is…I’ve given her a shot that should calm her nervous system down, she’ll be asleep for awhile…”
Arnav was barely able to listen…
He had just forced himself upon Khushi.
Upon the woman he loves.
Upon a virgin.
How could she be having an affair if she were still a virgin?
He recalled that she didn’t try to fight him…
Even though he had basically raped her, she didn’t try to fight him…
It was as though she was ready to take punishment…
Punishment even thought she was innocent…
The doctor had quietly slipped out and Arnav was left alone once again with Khushi…
He walked towards her…
Frightened of her.
Frightened of what he had just done.
His anger had been the cause of many things, but this…
He would never forgive himself for this…
Staring down at her, he felt immense waves of possession begin to overtake him…
He saw her innocence, and her purity, and felt a driving need to protect  her…
“Protect her…” he scoffed at himself…”I just abused her! ME! And now you want to protect her!?”
More than anything, he wanted to hurt himself.
With the inward pain he was already feeling, he wanted nothing more than to tear into himself and cause double the amount of pain to himself that he’d caused her…
Her…
Gazing back at Khushi, he cautiously peeled away the blanket that encompassed her…
He could see the dried blood around her thighs…
Quickly covering her back up, he bolted to the bathroom…
His stomach erupted with a fierce burning…
He loathed himself for what he’d just done…
Now that his stomach was empty, he gargled with mouthwash and quickly doused a washcloth with warm water…
Just as he was about to go back to her, he heard another voice…
Shyam.
As Arnav peered out, he saw Shyam standing in the doorway, staring at her…
“Khushiji…If only you didn’t love him…I was willing to offer you so much…I was willing to offer you everything…I am the one that loves you…Why couldn’t you love me? Why do you have to love Saale Saab…?”
Arnav felt as if all the air had been sucked from his lungs…
“She loves…me?”
Shyam smirked as he left the room and closed the door behind him…
Arnav instantly exited the bathroom and rapidly relocked all the doors…
“She…she will never love me again…not after this…not after…”
He felt his own head grow dizzy…
Stumbling to the bed,  he seated himself beside her…
With trembling hands, and a heart full of torturous pain, he gently lifted the blanket away from her body once again…
Then, lifting her leg with great care, he used the warm washcloth to clean away the blood…
His heart was surging with love for her…
All the misplaced anger was now transferred onto himself…
Hatred for himself began to grow and grow as he saw how red and grazed she was…
He remembered pulling inside her with his fingers…
His face began to burn as scalding tears created a path of fire down his cheeks…
“I…I…Khushi…I…How can I even ask for your forgiveness…How can I?…”
With an anguish he didn’t know he could feel, he shoved himself off the bed and re-entered the bathroom…
The blood blotted cloth in his hand only made him feel sicker…
The height at his abhorrent behaviour disgusted him…
“How can I ever…How can…I love her, and I did THAT!?”
Staring at himself in the mirror, his eyes were boiling with anger…”HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER!? HOW COULD YOU!?”
Unable to hold back any longer, he balled his hand into a fist and smashed it hard into the glass…
24 Comments leave one →
  1. March 29, 2013 10:07 am

    omg omg the asshoul wtf is wrong with himi cant believe he did that

  2. March 29, 2013 12:59 pm

    Shocked cant believe he would do have :0 Looking fowrad to the nxt part She will never forgive him

  3. March 29, 2013 3:03 pm

    really can't believe arnav did that to khushihe is gonna take a life time to make her forgive himplzzzz continue soon

  4. March 29, 2013 4:36 pm

    Wow really cant believe he could go that far o now hes gonna beat himself up for the rest of the life timedo continue

  5. March 29, 2013 4:39 pm

    OH MY GOSH!that was an earth shattering how could he do thisawesome update soon

  6. March 29, 2013 6:03 pm

    update soon plzzzzz

  7. March 29, 2013 6:42 pm

    Dammitt !!
    Arnav Iz Sch A Bastard Here :@
    Grrr! :/
    He Literally Raped His Wife ..
    Aaarrrggghhhh >:o
    Waitingg Fr His Oh-So-Famous Redemption Nw =P

    Wonderful Start Desi !!
    Yu Described Evrythn’ In Sch Intense Way ..
    Luvdd Itt !!

  8. March 29, 2013 8:06 pm

    hi sarah,just casually checked out your website for any new update on recapturing, but found this SS, awesome start loved it. cont soon. (IF user laksh65)

  9. March 29, 2013 8:39 pm

    nice start arnav you did very bad thing…india094-if

  10. March 30, 2013 1:28 am

    OMG! What a beast! He is a savage! There is nothing he can do that can make this right. NOTHING! He just raped her!!! OMG! I hate this Arnav!Poor Kushi. She should tell EVERYONE in the family what he did!IF – kbtr

  11. March 30, 2013 4:43 am

    so this is a new SS? would love to follow it..although i have reservations forgiving a rapist! but i would really like to know how you have planned this story..and its very well written!

  12. March 30, 2013 4:49 am

    So this is a new SS?very well-executed.although i have reservations forgiving rapists whoever he might be,, but i would like to follow this to know how you carry it! because you are such a good writer. i want to trust you as a reader!

  13. March 30, 2013 5:30 am

    asr man you focked up in so many way poor khushi had to pay for your anger and misunderstanding poor girl raped by the man she trust heartbreaking but awesome start

  14. March 30, 2013 5:34 am

    asr man you fucked up in so many way poor khushi had to pay for your anger and misunderstanding poor girl raped by the man she trust heartbreaking but awesome start so sorry to hear about your dad my condolence are with you and your family take your time we will wait for you

  15. March 30, 2013 8:01 am

    omg what a heartless big headed monster is arnav.. how could he do that to poor soul *crying* although now he crying seeing her state, there is no forgiveness for raping a girl …eager to c how u planned to take this story forward-Shwetz- IF

  16. March 30, 2013 8:57 am

    He is a bad boy and cruel too! Hope he makes it up to her. And he heard the snake too! Continue soon.

  17. March 30, 2013 3:04 pm

    Oh, that was so painful to read Sarah,
    poor Khushi, I can’t believe that Arnav will do such a thing to his love.
    My head was spinning from all the intensity in the update.

    Update when you can.

  18. March 31, 2013 8:21 pm

    Very difrent and erotic story….. Amazing plz carry on

  19. April 1, 2013 5:02 am

    I can't believe that Arnav did that to Khushi. How could he. Very well written. -desisweetheart9 from IF.

  20. April 2, 2013 10:29 am

    Man this is one intense story Wow !!!!!!!!!! That absolutely so cruel of Arnav !!! Hope he rectifies his mistakes soon ….Anumadduri ( IF )

  21. April 5, 2013 4:55 pm

    what arnav did is wrong. but one thng i know is he will move earth and sky up and down to make her happy

  22. Keya permalink
    April 28, 2013 9:24 am

    First of all thank you so much for returning to writing fanfictions. It has been a tough year for you and I’m so grateful that you have made it through!
    2nd woah Arnav crossed the flipping limit!!! After writing a thesis on domestic abuse I just want to make him suffer for what he did to Khushi

  23. June 4, 2013 5:17 pm

    i can’t believe he did that. he crossed all his limits. he deserves hard punishment, he needs to repent his mistake.

  24. November 22, 2013 2:48 pm

    oh god …this man ..he is truly a monster.. .how will she forgive him after this ………???
    nice start dear

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