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FF : I Feel Everything Part 41

July 17, 2013




Khushi let out a squeak of surprise as she walked straight into six feet of solid muscle, and warm skin…
She instantly leapt back, but strong male hands shackled her wrists and hauled her forwards…
She managed to stop herself from slamming into him, but only because she stiffened her arms and stopped her own forward momentum…
Her open palms pressed against his chest, an incredibly sturdy surface that was as strong as steel…
She blinked a few times, her senses reeling as she registered the flex and flow of her husbands ripped muscles…
She trembled as he held her firmly in place, and even though she couldn’t properly see his facial expression in the dark, she knew that he was furious with her…
He growled when she tried to move…
She flinched and tried to shift to one side, but his grasp on her didn’t ease, if anything his hold tightened…
Feeling faint, Khushi told herself that she was just hungry…
And once he knew, he might apologize and even offer to feed her…
She swayed against him, feeling a familiar scorching need suffuse every centimeter of her body as wave after wave of heat rolled off his large frame that was plastered against her…
“Khushi…”
She let out a quick moan, closing her eyes in the aftermath of the way he growled her name in that rough voice of his…
She breathed shallowly…
She felt as though she’d been running…
“Arnavji…” his name slowly spilled out of her…
His anger was palatable…
Her senses were heightened, and she grew more aware of his steady breathing and the alluring scent of his skin as he towered over her…
“What the hell do you think you’re doing…?”
Her fingers flexed against his chest as she began to feel nervous…”I…I’m…I’m hungry…”
“What the?!”
Khushi wanted to blame him for making her starve, and now for freaking her out…
“You…you took me upstairs before we ate dinner…and…and I’m…”
“I told you to go NOWHERE without me!”
Khushi started to tremble…”I…I know, but I saw that you were fast asleep and…”
“I TOLD YOU TO GO NOWHERE WITHOUT ME!”
Withdrawing her hands, she pushed at his chest, which only made him lunge closer towards her…
“Listen Mr. Singh Raizada, you were alseep! I saw no reason to bother you, and–“
But Arnav walked forwards and slammed their bodies together, effectively cutting her off…
“My name is Arnav…USE IT! And for the record, you bother me Mrs. Singh Raizada! You bother me a whole hell of a lot!”
A cold chill swept through her…”I’m…I’m sorry…but honestly Arnavji…I was hungry…”
As if on cue, her stomach rumbled,  loudly…
Arnav froze.
The way he was acting blasted into him and he felt instant, gutting shame…
He had been so taken in by his own fear that he had actually neglected her once again…
“We didn’t eat…I just took her upstairs and…damn it…” he thought as he closed his eyes…
Khushi saw how he was reacting, and wanted desperately to reassure him that he wasn’t to blame for this…
In fact, even though she was starving, she could see how far he was willing to go to protect her…
Arnav spanned her waist with his hands, his fingertips meeting as he brought her closer…
She felt his strength, then the shudder that ripped through his body…
She held her breath, conscious of her naked body beneath the silk white nightie…
The breath she’d been holding escaped her in a hot warm rush…
His hands tightened on her waist as he reeled her into him, molding her to his strong body with unexpectedly gentle hands…
As their bodies touched, she felt his hardening flesh pressing into her abdomen…
She finally remembered to breathe…
Lifting her head to look at him, she saw the shadowed outline of his broad shoulders, and his strong jaw…
“I’m…I’m really sorry…” she managed to rasp out, her words soft, breathless…
“Don’t apologize…This is my fault…again…I’m sorry I scared you…I can’t belive I was angry with you…I’m such a fucking idiot…”
He slid his hands lower, cupping her bottom, lifting her, rocking her back and forth to that her pelvis stroked the ridge of his flesh that was trapped between them…
“Why…?” he whispered…”
Khushi’s hands were now clinging tightly to his shoulders…”Huh? Why what?”
“Why are you letting me touch you like this?”
His muttered words sounded  pained…sounded like a strained voice of sanity that was barely holding on amidst a tornado of shame and guilt…
Khushi ached, frissions of desire spiraled through her body…
“Because…be…because…I  love you…because you’re my husband…”
He cradled her closer, smoothing her legs around his waist…
“I keep doing the wrong thing, saying the wrong thing…”he said with a breaking voice…”I just…I love you so much…so much that I actually hurt inside…I don’t want you to feel fear, and yet, I…I was the one who scared you again…”
Khushi slipped her arms around his neck, seeking stability, seeking more of him…”Arnavji…” her voice trailed off…
She smoothed her fingertips up the centre of his chest and then across to his upper arms…
He had muscles that reinforced his physical prowess were flexing beneath her touch, and his heat swamped her…
His senses shattered…
He released a harsh breath and rested his forehead against hers…
“I really didn’t want to bother you…I was just…so hungry…and…”
His hands moved from her waist to bracket her hips…
He held her still, lowering his head and gently kissing the side of her neck with his parted lips…
Khushi took joy in the fact that in that very moment, she wasn’t afraid, of him, or anything…
He touch on her was gentle, their bodies were able to communicate on a totally different level…
A non-verbal exchange that was older than time…
“…you were hungry…okay.” he said, his firm tone was unexpected in their intimate situation…
He suddenly released her…
Her bare feet his the floor…
His steady grip on her kept her from falling…
An instant later, he seized her hand and dragged her through the darkness to the kitchen…
Khushi heard the click of the wall switch, and blinked in surprise as bright light flooded the room…
Arnav was the first thing-the only thing- she saw…
Taking her gaze from the divine sight of his body wasn’t an option…
Speech didn’t seem possible either…
So, she gave in and scanned his broad shoulder and chest…
Moving lower, she saw that he merely wore a thin tshirt, and briefs that were riding low on his hips, revealing a flat, muscled stomach, and the potent evidence of his sex, and long muscular legs…
Khushi inhaled slowly and exhaled just as slowly…
Her husband personified every fantasy that she’d ever had about the perfect man…
Even during her obsession with Salman Khan, she had never thought that someone would surpass him…
Finally her eyes lifted to his and she caught sight of the evident sexual appraisal in his dark eyes…
Their surroundings only brought back every sexual encounter they had had…
The countless climaxes that he had brought her to…in the kitchen…
He could see her remembering and moved closer…
She took a small backward step, but the granite edge of the bench stopped her…
All the while, Arnav simply watched her…
“She’s coming back to me…” he thought, trying to not to roar with triumph…”I can see HER coming back to me…”
He surpressed the tears that threatened him and felt his erection stiffen at her hungry stare…
He watched her look over him as she used to…
He remembered the time when she felt no fear of him, felt no nerves around him, and was free to be herself…
And it was returning…
He felt strength flood his body, knowing that their love had once again proven how deep it actually was…
“And nothing is going to stop this progress…” he thought decidedly…”NOT ONE FUCKING THING…”
As she blinked slowly, he finally broke the silence…”Khushi?”
She stared at him for a long moment before finally speaking…”I feel…like…”
He stepped closer…
“I feel…”
“mmmm…?”
He now stood before her…
She felt his gaze sweep over her like a consuming tide…
Khushi quickly straightened and stepped aside him, crossing to the other side of the kitchen…
Her body was still clamoring with sensitivity…
Her stomach started to grumble once again and she distracted herself by grabbing an apple and biting down hard…
She forced herself to concentrate on food…
But as she chewed and crunched, she knew that she was under his steady gaze…
His silent study of her wore on her nerves, but she still managed to concentrate on filling her hungry stomach…
She chowed down as much as she could find…
But even as she did, she didn’t taste anything she ate, she simply refueled her body.
Finally taking a deep breath, she drank down a glass of water and met his gaze, pushing aside the empty plates…
He half-smiled, but said nothing…
“Well…” Khushi began hesitantly…”It’s midnight…”
He rested back against the kitchen counter and crossed his arms, “mmmhmmm…”
She stepped forwards, but the magnetic pull of him was beginning to infiltrate her body…
“Um…” she muttered…”I’ll…”
Turning back around, she picked up the plates and her glass and took them to the sink…
After filling the sink with warm water, she rinsed the plates and suddenly felt Arnav at her side, a dishtowel in his hand…
She slowly reached out, careful not to touch him as she took the small towel…
Once she closed her fingers over the edge of the towel, he tugged her forward, his own grip on the material firm, his expression brimming with intent…
Her eyes darted up…
He lifted his free hand to smooth a stray strand of her hair away from her cheek…
Tucking the silky lock behind her ear, he then curved his palm against the side of her neck…
Wide eyed, she was hypnotised, breath frozen in her chest…
Losing her grip on the towel, it landed on the floor over her feet…
She made no move to retreive it…
Arnav stayed perfectly still, not wanting to risk breaking the charged currents of arousal racing between them…
He slowly moved his fingers across her cheek before stroking her pouty bottom lip with his knuckles…
A tremor shuddered through his hand and she reached up, sliding her fingers into the warmth of his, pressing his hand more firmly against her lips…
“My God Khushi…” he breathed…
Khushi felt the change in him- the tightening of his body, the heat of his touch…
His raised his free hand and tipped her face up …
Leaning forward, he caught sight of the small scar along her forehead…
His lips brushed along the slightly raised skin…
Khushi could feel the heat of his mouth on her scar and she closed her eyes, trembling…
“Shhh….” he whispered…
“I…I was frightened…” she whimpered, no longer able to conceal the thoughts that were tumbling inside her…
Arnav shook his head and moved in closer…”Don’t be…I’m holding you…I just want to hold you…”
A combination of vulnerability and raw male hunger flashed in his flashing eyes…
She rested willingly in his arms  as he fitted her to his hard length by smoothing his hands down her back and over her hips…
Khushi savored being loved by him…being safe in his arms…
No one had ever, ever made her feel more alive…more protected…
She felt his tempered strength, his hands gentle as he caressed her back and threaded his fingers through her hair…
His earlier harshness had stunned her, but the underlying reason of why was fully clear…
……………
“Akash?”
Akash stirred from his position on the floor…”Yes Payal?”
“I…I just…why can’t you sleep on the couch or something, it can’t be comfortable there…”
Akash felt a pull in his heart…”No, It’s fine…I’m used to it really…”
Payal saw him sit up in the shadows…”Are you okay?”
He let out a long drawn out breath…
“I don’t know…when I was in prison, I wanted nothing more than to be home, with you…I knew Bhai would be angry…but he is way beyond angry…”
“I know…give it some time…SHOW him that you aren’t that way anymore…show him your heart has changed…”
As he lay back down, he watched the shadows dance across the wall and hoped in vain that things would be different when he awoke.
………
As Arnav held her, he felt a tiny yawn from her lips heat up his shoulder…
Taking her hand, he stepped back…”Let’s get some sleep…”
He was just about to lift her into his arms when she shook her head…”Arnavji, I’m okay…You don’t need to carry me…”
With a firm grip on her hand, he led her through the darkness back to their room…
She walked in and Arnav released her hand so he could lock the doors behind them…
When he turned back, he saw her still standing in the middle of the room…
Treading around to face her, he saw her wary eyes…
“Khushi?”
“I know you don’t want to talk about –“
“No. I don’t.”
“Arnavji, he said he has changed…”
His hands dropped to her waist…”Don’t do this Khushi.”
“I…I won’t… I’m sorry…”
Arnav’s fingers began to dig into her waist…”Khushi…too much has happened for me to trust anyone around you, no matter who they are…”
Tears stung her eyes, threatening to spill down her cheeks as she stared up at him…
Sweeping her forwards, his arms circled around her…
He smothered her cry by slamming his mouth over hers…
She felt his body push hers back onto the bed and she began to panic…
Arnav felt her struggle, trying to fight his superior strength…
Holding her down harder, he forced her back into reality…
He knew she had every right to fight what her fears were, but he wasn’t about to let any fear be present when he was with her…
When he thrust his tongue in her mouth, he felt the change in her…
Turning from fear to hunger, suddenly craving his sensual assault…
He eased their kiss but kept their mouth close…
“I…I was pushed back…onto the ground…when…”
“You’re with ME…” he said clearly as he traced her lips with the tip of his tongue…
Slowly sipping and biting, he kissed her as his hands caressed her body…
His tongue plunged deep…
His mouth feasted on her…
Until faint tremors of need racked his large body…
Khushi’s hesitation crumpled as her own tongue darted forwards, stroking, taking and tempting his…
She skimmed her fingers up over his shoulders, sliding them into his hair…
A heartbeat later, he filled his hands with her breasts, measuring the fullness he found there…
Khushi moaned into his mouth as he slowly began to pluck at her tight nipples until she thought she’d scream from the pleasure…
Arnav was a fierce lover…
One who demanded every bit as much as he gave…
Khushi’s skin began to dampen as his hands moved lower…
Her stomach muscles quivered when he smoothed his hands across her abdomen…
Arnav was having a very real fight in his head…
She was tired, she was emotionally bruised, physically depleted, and he knew she needed to rest…
He began to slow the kiss down and he cringed hearing her cry of disappointment…
“No…don’t stop…please…”
“Khushi, you’re tired…you need to rest…I don’t want you to have anymore disturbed nights…”
Yawning once again, Khushi tried to shake her head and prove that she wasn’t tired…
Furious that he had to move off her, he rolled to the side and held her in his arms…”Khushi…I want to be inside you…damn, I want to…but as I’ve said before, many times, I want to think of you first…and you, are going to rest now…”
The tension in her body slowly began to retreat as she felt his steady breath on her hair…
“I’m…” her voice began to tire…”I’m mad…mad at you…”
Arnav chuckled quietly…”I’ll make it up to you tomorrow…”
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11 Comments leave one →
  1. July 17, 2013 5:48 am

    wow am so looking forward to the make up session 🙂

  2. July 17, 2013 6:14 am

    I loved how Arnav paid attention to the fact that she needs some rest.Trusting Akash is going to be hard for everyone specially Arnav.Aquagal

  3. July 17, 2013 6:18 am

    Yippeee !!! I was right after reading part 40 ! She stopped coz Arnav was standing there…mad at her. Cant these two get enough of each other ? Khushi is yawning, tired but still wants to make love ! God help Khushi, Arnav is surely Fierce in bed and she knows that !Lol.. Eating in the kitchen and comparing Arnav and Salman Khan ! You gotta be kidding me !With a handsome hunk with broad shoulders, rippling muscles, well toned body is your husband who loves you like hell, considerate..how on earth could she even think of Salman Khan !!Oh well she is bound to be vulnerable with a greek god standing next to her watching her every movement ! *nindy fainting thinking his eyes on nindy* ! Raw male hunger in those eyes ! Yummy !Pretty considerate of Payal to ask Akash to sleep on couch. Akash used to the floor ( obviously in jail ) thinking about what will his future be and what will Arnav's reaction be in the morning ! ( nindy waiting too ) ! WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU TOMORROW !!! ( so sweet Arnav healing both her mind condition and body too ! ) always making Khushi realize its him near her, next to her, holding her, with her !So next update tomorrow !?! ;D … Arnav said will make it up to you tomorrow ?!Waiting now…Confrontation of Akash and Arnav next morning, Khushi's reactions, Payal too !

  4. July 17, 2013 7:12 am

    Eager to know how he is going to makeup. . Awesome update …

  5. July 17, 2013 8:08 am

    wow they are just so hotshe in only her nightgown and he in T-shirt and briefs in the kitchenfan, fan, fancant wait for the makeup

  6. July 17, 2013 2:01 pm

    lets see how will Arnav will amke up to her…..LOL,,,, we all know…..don't know what to expect,,,is Akash is +ve now or he is just playing …..loved the updateNeag(india-forums)PS : when will you update Development

  7. July 17, 2013 4:46 pm

    That was an amazinggg update!!!Khushi has now started to overcome the past n feel protective in arnavz embraceAwwwh how sweet she was mad at arnav n spooned up into his body n arnav m sure will make it upto herAmazinggg update!!!!

  8. July 18, 2013 12:52 pm

    loved the update glad it was arnav she is not ready to face akash in the of bright of day what will happen if she faced him in the dark loved how she is starting to over come the past loved how she was mad at arnav for stopping and loved how she was checking him out awesome update beautifully done

    • sukaina permalink
      July 18, 2013 2:05 pm

      One word- beautiful.
      You are such an amazing writer! ❤
      Looking forward to the make up session. 😀
      cheers. 🙂

  9. July 19, 2013 7:11 am

    They both are so attuned to each other.

  10. July 29, 2013 6:17 am

    Loved it. Glad that Arnav was the one who found her. Yes. He was angry but that is only because he was worried about Khushi. He wants to keep her safe. – desisweetheart9 from IF.

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